Here’s an interesting article on how the changing of the seasons can effect us.
Remember to celebrate the little tiny things that make each day a gift to be opened and enjoyed
Here’s an interesting article on how the changing of the seasons can effect us.
Remember to celebrate the little tiny things that make each day a gift to be opened and enjoyed
What is a support network? Well, in recovery, it’s a group of people that you incorporate into your day to day to help you remain abstinent. Every person you include can help you deactivate your triggering events, be a person to vent to, cry to, laugh with or whatever.
Remember, who you add is up to you. Sometimes you need to watch and listen before you add ANYONE to your network. Keep this in mind, everyone in treatment or in the rooms may not be serious about recovery! That’s why you have to watch, listen, screen, ask questions of the person you choose to include. YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON ADDING WORTHY INDIVIDUALS. And this could include people that you would like to work 12 steps with, to mentor you, spiritual leaders or friends, therapists. . . Any person that you think will add value to your group.
Again, before making these choices, complete a pros and cons list for the people. Act like you are hiring these people. Ask serious questions about their lives and their recovery. Ask how long they have been clean, who is their sponsor or mentor, how are they staying abstinent.
Here is a hand out that you can print and use for building your own group.
And yet again, you can use this one as a guide to create your own flow
Hope this helps…drop me a line!
We’ve talked about a lot of things…now it’s time to look at triggers and coping skills. A trigger or triggering event is anything that starts you down the path to a relapse. The rooms stress changing people, places and things. While that is a good start, it’s not the only things that can trigger an addict in recovery. Smells, objects, a song, a neighborhood, a needle on the ground, a lighter, and the list goes on and on. Don’t forget times of the year, payday, Friday, Christmas, New Year, hell any day really, depending on your mood.
Here are a few lists that you can read through that can help you deactivate your triggers once they go off in your head.
This first sheet is from boys’ town and was pinned on Pinterest (My favorite place)
Hope this helps. Please let me know what you would like to talk about.
Well guys, I officially cannot believe I’m doing this. Seriously. I’m sitting here thinking about it, and I’m like… Yep. That pretty much sums it up. In case you missed the …
Source: Sharing a Photo of my Past
It took my oldest daughter years to forgive me for my heroin addiction. When she was between 6 and 7, I started using morphine (in Baltimore, we call it raw dope). Everything was okay for the first 5 years. Then I started losing jobs and going to jail. As I slipped farther and farther into my addiction, my mother and step-father had to take over the parental role as her guardians’.
While I am thankful for all they did for her, it actually allowed me to slide farther down the rabbit hole. They were my main enablers. They took over the responsibility for her allowing me to run the street and do what I wanted to do. I knew she was well provided for and I took advantage of their love for her as I steadily got worse.
I didn’t realize the impact that my addiction had on that precious little girl. She was so beautiful and bright! I thought that I had done the right thing by letting my parents step in. But in the end, she wanted her mom so desperately and I was unavailable to her. I was dead to all but the call of my lover, the one who numbed all of my pain; heroin.
When we get our lives back, one thing that we cannot do is make up for all those years of hurt and pain. We can only ask for forgiveness. Sometimes it is given freely and sometimes it takes years of hard work to earn back some semblance of trust. Between my daughter and me, well, it took years. Now, it’s 16 years later and I can say that we have a good relationship.
But, hon, the first 5 years was hell on earth for me. Every time she felt hurt or slighted in any way, she would lash out with the fury of a woman scorned. Her words were weapons, and she was a master at arms. I would try to remain calm, but we all know that sooner or later, when we are reminded of the heinous acts and lack of action, we snap. While we can start at the point of our recovery and try to build from there, don’t expect to earn their trust over night.
We were both raw, sensitive and when the dust cleared, we were both broken and bleeding. The good news is that eventually, we came to an understanding. The knock out, drag out fights happened less and less and a truce arose. One thing that we both learned was that we were a lot alike. We feel things deeply and powerfully. We know that we can’t talk about things that we disagree on, because that opens the door for war.
She learned over time, that I had really changed. I could be motherly, a shoulder to cry on, a cheerleader, an advocate and someone she could finally trust. I learned that if I needed an ear, she would listen….mostly. She still aggravates me when I call and think she is listening only to find out she’s not. I get mad and hang up. But should she need me, I come a running.
So, yeah, it took years and years of me showing up in our relationship. It took me walking out my recovery before her eyes, in word and deed. I had to put the work in. I had to prove to her that I was worthy of her. Eventually that mother daughter thing took root and began to grow into a beautiful and living thing.
But make no mistake, I had to earn that trust. Was it easy? Hell to the no it wasn’t easy. Was it worth it? Yes!!! Every argument, every derogatory remark, every knock down drag out, every tear, every “I’m so sorry” all of it. I wouldn’t change one thing about it, because it has made us stronger, better mothers and women in general.
If someone she knows is struggling with addiction, she is confident in my ability to counsel, give advice and just listen. I love that too! I look at it as her ultimate stamp of approval of what I have evolved into…that drill sergeant that can whip a recruit into a lean mean recovery machine. So….this is for my miracle baby that allowed me to gain the trust of those wretched years! This is a tribute to my Jennifer Marie.
Because of my kids, I fight on! I show up every day 24/7/365! It’s a lifestyle not a profession. And I fight on for your kids, your moms and dads, husbands and wives as well as your brothers and sisters. I take a stand in the trenches so that one day, you will have the opportunity to gain the trust of all those that prayed and cried over you as you did your dirt.
As always, press in, hang tough and just do it! Until next time.
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Basic Training! That’s what every person who enters into treatment for an addiction is in need of. They need to learn how to think, feel, act and live without their addiction to cloud their judgement. It seems that the very core of a person is changed so that they can seek, obtain and take their DOC (Drug of Choice).
After you have done this for any length of time, you have to retrain the brain to think, live and even feel again.
Say, for instance, a person is a heroin addict. Their whole existence revolves around getting the money so that they can cop and feel “normal” again. This cycle can be so vicious that even our loved ones mean nothing when it comes to the getting and obtain of the DOC.
I chose the name “Recovery Drill Sergeant” because of my approach to addiction and as an addictions counselor. I thoroughly believe that every person that I encounter needs to be training on how to live again (Thus the boot camp and basic training concept). Just like any solider, the person in recovery needs to learn the skills that are needed to go back to their homes and stay alive without use.
I remember my own journey into the glorious world of recovery. Everything was new and fresh and exciting for me; but my friends and loved ones’ still remembered that a day, week, month and year ago, I was, in most cases, a hostile enemy. Laying down those old weapons of manipulation and deception, I had to “pick up” weapons of Forgiveness, understanding, hard work and the repetition of walking out my recovery on a daily basis.
When you join the service, you push your mind, body and spirit to the extreme. You test the limits of your determination and your reserve. The same is true in the recovery process. You are basically reinventing your life and self to live life simply- every day, without ceasing for the rest of your life. Therefore, you need the basics of how to start doing that again.
We knew how to do that at one time in our lives. The Keys to unlocking a future of hope, sobriety and promise is pushing yourself to the limit, learning new way to think and eventually on how to feel. These are just the tip of the proverbial ice burg, but you got to start somewhere.
Welcome to my world. The battle gets bloody, dirty and downright stinky. I promise you though, that recovery is where it’s at. No matter what you have to do to get there, the fight is worth every single second. There is a freedom and a joy that I experience on the worst days of my life and I wouldn’t change one battle that I’ve fought to get here! It’s made me who and what I am.
Ready to join the struggle for your own personal freedom? Leave a comment, like this post and most of all share it with those that still struggle. Until next time…See you in basic training.
One of my biggest pet peeves with the Newbie to recovery is that they don’t want to put the work in. What does that mean??? It means that they often put themselves in harm’s way to get the money for the drug of choice, to find a place to use it and then to be high only to come into treatment and whine because they have to go to meetings or group!!!!
Are you kidding me??? Are you for REAL??!?!?!?! We sold our souls, stole from our families, our kids, we sold our bodies, we would do ANY THING that the corner boys told us to do to get a tester, a blast, out of the gate…BUT 2 weeks into recovery, we cry because getting up to go to a group or meeting is just TOO DANG BURN HARD.
I am sure I felt the same way. But when I entered recovery, I had a group of women around me that pushed me, believed in my recovery and went out of their way to help me get to where I needed to go and do what I needed to do. Also my mom was my biggest fan. She provided the free babysitting that helped me get back to work within 5 months.
One of my mentor’s quoted over and over, “No correction feels good (Click the link to see Hebrews 11:12 in several translations) at the time you receive it, but in the end it is very profitable for your recovery (Growth, success, etc.). That one saying carried me through celebrating 16 years of recovery 7 days ago.
Everyone’s story is not the same. It’s as unique as the individual. One thing that is consistent throughout the recovery process is that there are people who are willing to help. Even with all of the mess we bring into recovery. Just like in anything else in life, you have to find your tribe-your path.
And let me tell you, it does get easier! Otherwise we could not or would not recover. Addicts do NOT like pain-Why else would we put ourselves and our people through all of that if we could just walk into recovery and feel no pain. IT HURTS TO RECOVER…but buddy o’ pal I wouldn’t change the journey at ALL (except for the pain I caused to my loved ones). That struggle, the pain, the tears all of the blood and gut wrenching pain has made me who and what I am. That Recovery Drill Sergeant that will fight with you until it is settled and you are on the other side of that moment when you chose recovery.
We’ve all heard the phrases and slang in the rooms or in jail on the wall –
“This too shall pass” or “My worst days in recovery are better than my best days in addiction” and oh how about this one “Recovery is not for people who need it, it’s for people WHO WANT IT.”
I like that one. Basically when I started in recovery I could only do it 5 minutes at a time. Then it went up to 10 minutes, a group length, a day, a few days, then weeks, months and now years.
But any time I start to whine about the work or the struggle or whaaa whaaa whaaa , I turn to My Higher Power, my King and His Spirit encourages me, and lifts me back to my feet and brushes me off so I can finish the race.
I tell my client’s all the time. “We are either working on recovery or we are working on a relapse. There is no sitting on the fence and taking a time out. Because your addiction has been sitting in the recovery groups with you so it can learn what you’re learning and can throw that monkey wrench in your workings. It is crafty, devious and DEADLY!”
My goal is always to encourage and to lift up those in the struggle. I do NOT do this by hand holding and paddy caking. That’s not what a drill sergeant does. They get ½ inch from your face and scream at you and put foot to butt so that when you leave treatment, you will not die as soon as you get home. Or in other words, you won’t go cop as soon as you hit the hood.
Stop whining! Or if you have to whine, whine as you keep crawling forward. Whine as you pick yourself up. Whine and WIN this thing. How about this; instead of whining how about thanking your Higher Power for waking you up ad giving you one more day on this glorious ride we call living!
Here’s one of my favorite C. S Lewis quotes…
If you would like, I would welcome your feedback. Until next time! Live long and prosper dude!
What can we say about the beginning of our recovery process. It’s raw, it hurts, we may be scared, we feel crappy in our spirit our soul and of course, our body. The good part of all this is that every day you will begin to feel better. You will start to walk free of the influence of the drug you were addicted too.
The beginning of ANY journey starts with the first step. Based on the quote below, 23 million Americans have already taken their first step.
Over 23 million Americans are in recovery from addiction to alcohol and other drugs according to a nationally representative survey from The New York State Office of Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Services (OASAS) and The Partnership at Drugfree.org conducted among 2,526 adults, ages 18 and older, living in the United States. **”Frequently Asked Questions.” Frequently Asked Questions. Web. 02 Apr. 2016
Just remember, because others have blazed the trail, you can too. You are not alone in this thing. Don’t let your addiction lie to you. It will try to isolate you. The truth is, all the work you did as an addict, if you can put 1/2 of that effort into your recovery YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL.
I’ve lived it personally, but the kicker is, as an addictions counselor, I see people do it every single day. I see the struggle. BUT..people begin to recover simply by taking their first unsteady baby step. This step could be any of the following
These are just the most obvious. Your first step is as unique as you are. Everyone’s recovery process can be similar but totally different as we.
The key is…start!
The first step is the hardest…but it does get easier.
Reach out. Ask for help. Tell someone. here are some links that can help you take the first step.
Feel free to reach out to me. Send me your questions or concerns. I will do the best I can to steer you in the right direction.
See you on the flip side
I was in a place of contemplation, when this phrase dropped into my heart.
“A thousand yesterdays’ don’t have the power of your ‘right now’! Say this phrase out loud several times. Then say it a few times very slowly, annunciating each word. Think about the meaning of the words. Now say it again one more time
Are you beginning to sense the power of this statement? These simple 11 words when they are strung together in this particular order has more power for the addict that still suffers, the addict in recovery and those that have been stagnant in their recovery. This can be the statement that sets you free from your addiction, your mental blockade, your inability to break free and your key to leaving all of that behind.
So what! You’ve been an addict. What difference does it make how much you used, bought, slung, bagged, murdered, robbed or hurt. It’s in your PAST. Only you can let it ruin your right now and your future. We all did terrible things for our addictions. It has made us who we are. And I for one would not change the journey I took to become me.
Oh, don’t get me wrong. I am very repentant for the pain I caused to my loved ones and friends. BUT and this is a big ole BUT—I wouldn’t be who I am today without that journey.
What am I. Well I’m passionate about recovery. Recovery from drugs, alcohol, food, sex, gambling, work, exercise –I’m passionate about recovering FROM EVERYTHING THAT STOPS US FROM BEING THE BEST WE CAN BE. That’s why the power of my right now, of your right now, of our right now simply crushes addiction under our feet. That’s how powerful being in the now and living in the now is for us. If you are breathing-you CAN recover!
Right NOW I sit here tired as all get out. BUT I absolutely must tell you that you can make it. You can get out and in a few right nows, you will be tired on a Friday and you can write, share, sing, build, create anything that you want too to help those still in the prisons of their addictions.
Right now is your hope for a better later on, for a better tomorrow. Take heart and courage my dear friends. You do not struggle alone or in vain. Anything worth having is worth the price and struggle to obtain it. Don’t give up. Press into the now. Declare your freedom! Tell everyone you see that your right now is important.
Leave a comment, share a story, write a poem, sing a song. RAGE against the machinations of addictions everywhere in our world today. Fight on my friend! You are not alone.
Until next time. This is the Drill Sergeant saying live in the now! Fight on! LIVE.
Everyone can recovery. I know, because I was a hopeless case. My family had written me off as unredeemable. That’s just crazy! Every person that is was or will be can be saved. Saved from themselves, saved from their addiction no matter what they are addicted too and saved for hopelessness and despair.
If I can do it so can anyone else. The problem with recovery processes is that the person in recovery thinks that they can come int
o treatment and then sit on their rumps for the duration and walk away a changed person. That is a flat out lie! If you are a drug addict using heroin every day, you had to make the money to get the drug. Then you had to find it and get some place that you could smoke, shoot or sniff it. THAT IS WORK.
So give yourself a chance. Come in to get help and then accept the help for what it is.Don’t try and tell help how to help you. Keep your mouth shut and your ears and eyes open and soak it in like a sponge. Freedom can be YOURS. All you have to do is want it bad enough and it will be yours.